Lord I Have A Confession

Dear Jesus

I have a confession. I have been hiding behind the labels I gave myself and have adopted them as mine. I stopped driving in 2021 due to experiencing anxiety for the first time. In my life as a new mom, I didn't know what anxiety was until I had panic attacks. Isolated myself and gained an unhealthy attachment to my husband, where I only did things with him. 

I was never alone, spent the remainder of the weekdays at home didnt go out at all. He lowkey enabled me by not pushing me, but he didnt know what to do. I was too emotional at first. For the first 3 years of my son's life, I was a wreck, anxious, and depressed. He did all the errands for us. I lost friends. I pushed people away because I wanted to show up as normal, and I couldn't.

 I even push my parents away, and I hardly see my siblings. But here's the thing I saw: I've been hiding behind this label. Even though this is part of my story, it doesn't mean I can't overcome. Be independent again, going to the store by myself with my son, or driving alone.

I started driving again in 2025, but only with my husband in towns near ours and in our town as well. That's all the driving I have done,  he, my passenger prince, it's huge, and it proves I can drive. The issue is not driving anymore. The issue doesn't seem to be anxiety, either; I haven't experienced one in a while.  

So, Lord, please forgive me. I am stuck in comfort, and it's not doing me any good anymore. Can you help me, Lord? Help me go to the next level. Helping me regain self-trust again. 

Help me break the avoidance pattern. I gained these past 5 years, Lord. Help me have grace and compassion for myself, Lord. Help me not be mean to myself and gain shame and guilt, Lord.

 I am sorry for my lack of faith in this area.  

Scripture:

2 Timothy 1:7
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and sound judgment." 

Romans 12:2
"Do not be conformed to this age, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may discern what is the good, pleasing, and perfect will of God" 

Joshua 1:9
Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” 

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight